Just One of Those Days

Friends, have you ever felt just…well…I can’t even think of one word to describe it. Have you ever felt tired, overwhelmed, unorganized, uninspired, not sure what to do next all in one day? That’s where I am at today.

I am usually a positive person…the one smiling and encouraging everyone else. I usually have a good attitude and am just thankful for all God has blessed me with. Now don’t get me wrong, I am still very thankful but I just feel off.

These feelings probably come from school starting this week, lots going on at work, getting grades in for my night class, trying to keep up with chores, and getting over a kidney stone. I just don’t like feeling this way.

I know what I need more than anything…time with my Father. With everything going on I haven’t spent enough time with Him. I even apologized to my partner in a Bible/Book study today because I haven’t had a chance to post. I haven’t posted because I haven’t taken the time to journal and process what I have read.

I need to get my priorities back in order…get my focus back on what really matters.

One thing I am going to do is take The UnWired Mom Challenge. I have caught myself too many times just wasting time on my computer or phone. You too? Why don’t you join us? Check out Sarah Mae’s blog to find out more.

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I am also going to make time each day to read, journal, and pray. With a husband and three kids, finding the time can be hard some days but I know I will be a better wife and mom if I do.

The Bible/Book study I am doing right now is through Proverbs 31 Ministries. We are reading What Happens When Women Say Yes to God by Lysa TerKeurst.

I want to say “Yes” to God. I want to be used by Him. I realize though that in order for that to happen I need to put Him first, let some things go, and get some rest. He certainly can’t use me if I am too busy doing other things or just too tired.

Thank you for spending some time with me and letting me vent! I am already feeling better. How about you? What steps are you going to take to make some changes in your life? We are in this together so let me know if I can pray for you or help in some way.

Blessings to You!
Melissa

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He’s Still Working On Me

When I think about how much I have changed over the past few years, I start singing the song “He’s still working on me”. Do you remember that song? My dad had it on cassette and loved to hear me sing it. I never realized how powerful the words were to this song until recently.

He’s still working on me
To make me what I need to be
It took him just a week to make the moon and stars
The sun and the earth and Jupiter and Mars
How loving and patient He must be
‘Cause He’s still workin’ on me

There really ought to be a sign upon my heart
Don’t judge him yet, there’s an unfinished part
But I’ll be better just according to His plan
Fashioned by the Master’s loving hands

In the mirror of His word
Reflections that I see
Makes me wonder why He never gave up on me
But He loves me as I am and helps me when I pray
Remember He’s the potter; I’m the clay

(written by Joel Hemphill)

I feel Him working on me each day…changing a little at a time…shaping me for His plans.

Change is not easy but it is necessary. He often requires us stepping out of our comfort zones, taking a leap of faith. This keeps us where we need to be…relying on Him. The dreams He has put in my heart would be impossible to do on my own, but I know I can do all things through Him (Philippians 4:13).

He supplies my strength, my hope, my joy, my peace…he supplies me with everything I need.

Since I made the decision to give Him control, my life has not been stable or comfortable. Walking away from a full-time position was very hard but He has been so faithful. We just get by some months, but we have a home, cars to drive, food to eat, and clothes to wear. I am thankful for everything He has blessed us with.

He has shown me that life is about so much more than things. It is about love and relationships. It is about learning and growing. It is about living the life He has planned for us.

I have always been a planner so letting go of our future was a hard transition for me. It took some hard times for me to give that up. Oh I still have my calendar (I’d be lost without it) but I am open to changes. I know that God’s plan is so much better than mine.

We are in a waiting period right now and patience is not something that comes to me naturally. I have gotten better but still have a ways to go.

There are some other job opportunities out there for me right now. I have applied and interviewed for two of them. I believe one job would be great for me and my family but I have struggled with the other one. It would be a great position with a better salary but one that would take a lot of time and effort on my part. It would be nice having more money coming in but my first ministry is to my family and I don’t want to do anything to jeopardize that. I am a wife and a mom and those two responsibilities come first. (I think I now have my answer about the second position.)

God is so good and I am proud of the changes I see in me. Giving Him control of my life though is not just something I did one day and it is done…it is a daily thing for me. I still struggle and I still make mistakes. The difference is that I know my gracious Father forgives me and will continue to help me. Each day I turn to Luke 9:23. I want to be His disciple and bring Him honor and glory.

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How about you…is He still working on you? Is it hard to turn it all over to Him? I’d love to hear from you.

Blessing to You,
Melissa

Ready to Live Uncomfortable

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WOW!! Ann’s latest post really hit me hard. You can see that God is using her, speaking through her words.

Living radical isn’t about where you live — it’s about how you love.

You are changing the world – when you are changing one person’s world.

Go ahead, give us that. We want that. We are the generations that are done living the comforts of this world and we’re ready to live uncomfortable because we’re ready for the comfort of God.

I don’t think it is a coincidence that she is writing about her time with Katie, the same Katie I am reading about in the book Anything by Jennie Allen.

I have been wrestling with my God-sized dream. Just not sure where He wants me and what He wants me to do next. Things are changing though. I hear him speaking to me, leading me.

I am working on plans and details for our Beautiful You conference. I thought it should be this Fall but not anymore. February seems like the right time. This is getting bigger than I ever imagined. He is using me and I am nervous but so very excited. I want to see lives changed in my county and beyond!

I can see my dream growing and going to places I had not imagined.

I am so thankful for all the women that bless me and inspire me with their words. I know that God placed them in my life. I have never met them, but they feel like friends. I hope to meet all of them one day.

I am also blessed to have those that I do know…those that help and support me.

My heart is beating fast and I am making a list of things to do and people to contact. I am so excited about what God is doing in me and through me!

I’d love to have your prayers as I pursue this dream. Please let me know how I can pray for you too.

One more thing to think about from Ann’s post…

We want clarity; God wants us to come closer. Life is always clear when you press closer and see it through the sheer love of God.

Blessing to You!
Melissa

 

A Celebration for Education {Lanier Technical College & Barrow County Schools}

What a beautiful morning! I was able to go celebrate with friends and family from Lanier Tech and Barrow County this morning.

I was surprised at my emotions at the ground breaking ceremony. It hit me as I sat listening to the speakers that Lisa Maloof had finally seen one of her God-sized dreams come true. Years of dedication and hard work made today possible.

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Next Fall there will be a new Lanier Tech Winder Campus and a Barrow County Career Academy. What a blessing for those in this area! There will be training for all ages and for the specialized skills needed in and around Barrow County.

Our speakers talked about the importance of education and training and reminded us that what we were a part of today would affect generations to come.

Our Georgia Representative Terry England was there and our Lt. Governor Casey Cagle. I was especially happy that my cousin and new President of Lanier Tech, Ray Perren, was there. He is such a good, honest man and leader. I know he will do great things for the staff and students at the college.

I can honestly say that working at Lanier Tech was the best part of my teaching career. I loved the people I worked with and I enjoyed teaching skills that would help our students reach their goals.

I still remember my last day at Lanier Tech. It was so hard to leave but I knew God had other plans for me. I have no doubt that He put a love in my heart for the people and students at this college and will lead me back there one day. I am so thankful that I was able to be a part of their celebration today.

Blessings to You,
Melissa

Father’s Day…Happy & Sad Day

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I know this day is not an easy one for a lot of people. Either they have lost their Dad or some don’t have a relationship with him.

I am feeling blessed this year. I still have my Dad, my Step-dad, and my Father-in-law. We hope to see all three of them today. My kids and I are also blessed to have my husband. I love to watch him with the kids when we are fishing, cooking, or just hanging out. I pray that they will feel how much he loves them and that they will have so many wonderful memories of him when they are adults.

I didn’t always have a good relationship with my Dad. My parents divorced when I was 14 and saying it was hard is such an understatement. I moved away from my family and friends and our father-daughter relationship was torn to shreds.

I am sad to say that I tolerated him for a lot of years, even at my wedding. A year after my wedding though I severed all ties. My husband and I moved away and I decided I wanted nothing to do with him.

Let me tell you, forgiveness is essential for a happy, peaceful life. I didn’t have that for a long time. I thought I was okay but deep down there was a hole. It wasn’t until after my second child was born that we began working on our relationship again. I can tell you that it was only through God’s example and His teaching that I was able to forgive and love my Dad again.

We don’t talk about the past. We focus on the here and now. I have forgiven him for everything we went through back then and have told him so. We don’t have the perfect father-daughter relationship, but it works. I enjoy being around him now and my children LOVE to see their Grandpa!

So I know not all Father’s Days are good ones. I missed out on several years with mine, but I am glad I still have him and that we can celebrate this day together. It breaks my heart for my friends that don’t have their Dads today.

We are blessed to have my Step-dad and my Father-in-law too! My step-dad, Roy, has been so good to me and my family. He has always loved me and treated me like his own daughter. People are surprised when they find out that he in not my biological father. Everyone can see how much he loves me and my children. My husband’s dad, Thomas, is such a sweet man. I love to see him cuddle up with the kids and just talk with them. He has had to be so strong lately with my mother-in-law fighting cancer.

I am thankful for all the years I had with my Papa but this is a day that I miss him terribly. I have so many wonderful memories with him. I wish my children could have gotten to spend more time with him. He was a sweet, loving, God-fearing man and I love him!

Whether this is a happy or sad day for you, remember that you always have your Heavenly Father and He loves you unconditionally. If you are struggling in your relationship with your Dad or if you are missing him today, I pray that God will wrap His loving arms around you and give you peace. If you do have your Dad or Grandpas, tell them how much you love and appreciate them today. If you are married and have children, make sure to tell your husband too!

Blessings to You,
Melissa

 

Listen {Five Minute Friday}

It’s Five Minute Friday! I am linking up again with our awesome host, Lisa-Jo. She gives us one word each week and asks us just to write for five minutes. Our word for this week…

LISTEN

Who do you listen to?

Do you listen to those negative comments in your mind? Does your self-worth come from what others say to you or about you?

I spent years trying to do and say the right things so that others would like me. My self-worth came from my job, how my kids acted, what we drove. I still listen sometimes to those negative thoughts that creep in but I am working on that. A good way to fight those thoughts is to remember who you are and whose you are…I am a daughter of the King!

I used to wonder why I didn’t hear God…why wasn’t He showing me His plan for my life. I realized that I wasn’t listening. I wasn’t spending time with Him so that He could speak to me and lead me. I also had to learn to give Him the control. I had wanted Him to show me which way to go and then get out of my way.

My day is so different when I start it off spending time with my Father. He speaks to me through His Word, through songs, and through others.

Right now I am waiting patiently and listening for what to do next in my life. There are other job opportunities for me but I want to make sure I am following His path for me. What may seem like a good idea to me could actually lead me away from what He has planned. So I will wait, pray, and listen.

Join us over at Lisa-Jo’s to see what others have to say about listening.
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Blessings to You,
Melissa

Another Year

Another year…42 in all. The years have passed way too fast!

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As I sit here and think about my life, I can truly say that I am now joyful…full of joy. I know that this kind of joy does not come from people or things. It comes from having a close relationship with God.

I was saved when I was a little girl but I haven’t always had a close relationship with Him. I am so thankful that He has changed me over the past few years. I am still a work in progress and I always will be. I know He has great plans for me and I look forward to seeing them unfold.

It has been a wonderful day so far…I have had my Spark…I did my Bible study…and now I am enjoying the quiet before my family gets up.

I am looking forward to spending time with my family today and all the hugs and kisses.

I pray today that however long God has me here that I will be a good example for my family and others. I want to be a light for Him and be used for His glory. I am thankful for all the blessings He has given to me and I am thankful for another birthday.

Blessings to You,
Melissa

Fall {Five-Minute Friday}

It’s Five Minute Friday! I am linking up again with our awesome host, Lisa-Jo. She gives us one word each week and asks us just to write for five minutes. Our word for this week…

FALL

My mind was already churning this morning about self-worth. This word makes me think about how many times we fall into Satan’s trap.

I think about the times I felt good or bad about myself just from the number of likes on a Facebook post or a post on my blog. I have caught myself thinking “Well he/she didn’t like my post so they must not like me anymore.” When I come to my senses, I realize that negative thoughts like that are just Satan’s way of keeping me from what God has in store for me.

Comparison, self-doubt, and jealousy keep us from our God-sized dreams. They keep us from stepping out and doing what God has created only for us to do. We have to remember that each of us was created unique and for a different purpose.

So when the negative thoughts start creeping in, remember this verse…
Pay careful attention to your own work,

Blessings to You,
Melissa

Check out what others are saying about the word Fall…Five Minute Friday

Summer…Time for Family, Fun, and Faith

Whew! The past month has been a busy one…end of school, working, writing, teaching at night, kids’ activities…all while trying to lead our Bible study and find the time I need for rest. How about you? Have you been busy too?

This month I am planning some time for fun! I am still working and teaching two nights a week but I am making time to study God’s Word and making memories with my family.

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I didn’t always make the time for those two things. I focused on my career and tried to make everyone else happy. I wasn’t happy with myself so I felt I had to work harder and do more so people would like me. I thought that would make me feel better. I was so very wrong!

I now know what brings me joy and happiness…
It is having a close, personal relationship with our Creator.
It is focusing on my most important ministry – my family.
It is knowing that God has a plan for me and it is better than I could ever imagine!

I am teaching a night class back at the college I worked at four years ago. It was so hard leaving that place. I love the people there and it is still the best job I ever had. It has felt like going home.

I left because God had other plans for me, but now I feel like He is leading me back. They don’t have a full-time position right now but I can see myself there within the next year. It would be a perfect fit with my non-profit too.

I want to help women follow their God-sized dreams. If their dream is to go to college, then I could help them get in and be right there to encourage them all the way through.

There is a peace looking back and seeing how God has used people and experiences to get you ready for the next journey. I see so much in my past that makes me the perfect one to pursue my dream. It hasn’t always been easy but it will all be worth it.

Do you have a God-sized dream? Have you been struggling to find your path? Spend time praying and reading His Word and He will make your path clear. Just leave me a comment and I will be praying for you too.

Do you plan to slow down this summer and focus on making memories? Please feel free to share your ideas and activities with the rest of us. I’ll be sharing some of our fun here on the blog. Check out some of the cool things I found on Pinterest too…http://pinterest.com/mjwallace3/summer-time/.

Blessings to You!
Melissa

Are you looking for something to read this summer? Two books I highly recommend…
Holley Gerth’s You’re Made for a God-Sized Dream and it is 50% off this week at LifeWay.
Jennie Allen’s Anything…reading this right now for our Good Morning Girls study. I had planned to do a different study this summer, but God had a different plan. 🙂

 

Imagine {Five Minute Friday}

It’s Five Minute Friday! I missed a few weeks but I am linking up again with our awesome host, Lisa-Jo. She gives us one word each week and asks us just to write for five minutes. Our word for this week…

IMAGINE

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Imagine if we knew our worth.

Imagine if we could always see our true beauty.

Imagine if we trusted God with everything in our lives.

Imagine if we truly loved one another.

Imagine if we did more random acts of kindness.

Imagine if we spent more time building others up instead of tearing them down.

Imagine if we dreamed God-sized dreams.

Imagine if we let go of all our worries and fears.

Imagine if we spent more time reading and following His Word.

Imagine if we told God we would do Anything for Him.

What kind of world would we live in? We would truly be the hands and feet of Christ and leading others to Him. I don’t want to just imagine these things…I want to live them. How about you?

Blessings to You!
Melissa
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