Say What?

What a week! I really feel God working in my life and speaking to me…showing me He is faithful and that I can trust Him with all my heart.

I don’t know why I still have trouble trusting Him. As I look back over the past few years, He has been so loving and faithful. It happens though every time when things get tough and I just don’t know how we are going to get by financially, I start worrying and trying to find a solution.

Over the past few months I have been on a few interviews, felt really good about them, and then didn’t end up getting the job. As I look back, my focus was more on the extra money we would have and not the job itself. I have had to let go and just trust and that is very hard for me. He has always provided for us so why do I still doubt?

This past week I have focused more on Him and the blessings He has given us. I have spent more time thinking about the dreams He has put in my heart and asking Him what His plans are for me and my family. I was able to let go and feel a peace about our finances.

Well let me just tell you, I used our Bible study phrase of the week when we got a check in the mail this weekend…Say What? He had provided for our needs and then some!! My husband received his commission check for the month and it was much more than we ever expected. I stopped right then and there and thanked God. Then I felt guilty for not trusting Him like I should.

I can’t tell you that my doubt won’t creep in again and that I won’t worry, but I am a work in progress. My Bible study and the lessons that we are learning at church are helping me grow and change how I handle life.

I love that my Bible study and our lessons at church are emphasizing some of the same things. I can feel my Father speaking to me.

Some reminders from church this morning…

  • God hears – He hears our complaints and loves us anyway.
  • God is near – We have to slow down sometimes to feel His presence. Sometimes we work so hard to honor God that we miss His presence.
  • God provides – Provides everything we need, when we need it.
  • God tests – The purpose is so that we see our hearts and mature in our faith.
  • God is so generous – If you have God, what else do you really need?

Here are some notes from my study

  • Find a quiet place – Choose a quiet comfortable place where you won’t be interrupted or distracted.
  • Invite God to guide you – As you begin to review your day in God’s presence, ask Him to guide and teach you.
  • Begin with gratitude – Look back on your day–morning, afternoon and evening–and notice all the ways in which you experienced God’s goodness.
  • Look for leadings – Now go through your day again–morning, afternoon, and evening. You may want to imagine that Jesus is sitting with you while you watch a video replay of your day. When something you see catches your attention, push the “pause” button. Then ask Jesus for His guidance and insight.

It is all about spending time with Him, to feel His presence, trusting Him with everything, and letting Him guide us.

How about you? Did you have a Say What? moment this week? Are there things in your life that you need to let go of? I’d love to hear from you and pray for you!

Blessings to You,
Melissa

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Just One of Those Days

Friends, have you ever felt just…well…I can’t even think of one word to describe it. Have you ever felt tired, overwhelmed, unorganized, uninspired, not sure what to do next all in one day? That’s where I am at today.

I am usually a positive person…the one smiling and encouraging everyone else. I usually have a good attitude and am just thankful for all God has blessed me with. Now don’t get me wrong, I am still very thankful but I just feel off.

These feelings probably come from school starting this week, lots going on at work, getting grades in for my night class, trying to keep up with chores, and getting over a kidney stone. I just don’t like feeling this way.

I know what I need more than anything…time with my Father. With everything going on I haven’t spent enough time with Him. I even apologized to my partner in a Bible/Book study today because I haven’t had a chance to post. I haven’t posted because I haven’t taken the time to journal and process what I have read.

I need to get my priorities back in order…get my focus back on what really matters.

One thing I am going to do is take The UnWired Mom Challenge. I have caught myself too many times just wasting time on my computer or phone. You too? Why don’t you join us? Check out Sarah Mae’s blog to find out more.

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I am also going to make time each day to read, journal, and pray. With a husband and three kids, finding the time can be hard some days but I know I will be a better wife and mom if I do.

The Bible/Book study I am doing right now is through Proverbs 31 Ministries. We are reading What Happens When Women Say Yes to God by Lysa TerKeurst.

I want to say “Yes” to God. I want to be used by Him. I realize though that in order for that to happen I need to put Him first, let some things go, and get some rest. He certainly can’t use me if I am too busy doing other things or just too tired.

Thank you for spending some time with me and letting me vent! I am already feeling better. How about you? What steps are you going to take to make some changes in your life? We are in this together so let me know if I can pray for you or help in some way.

Blessings to You!
Melissa

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Girl Time

I am an early riser…I am usually up by 6:30 or 7:00 even when I don’t have to go to work. I love my quiet time…a time to read my Bible, study, and get ready for the day.

This morning didn’t work out as I had planned. As soon as I got up and got in my chair I heard footsteps. My sweet, little girl got up early too and wanted to snuggle. She asked if I had to go to work, when I told her “no” she said she wanted to spend morning, all day, and night with me. That made this mom’s heart feel like it would bust!

We curled up and snuggled for a long time and talked about how we would still snuggle when she gets older, even when she is an adult. I don’t know if that will really happen but I can hope. She is such a blessing! She will tell you that God knew I needed a little girl and she is right.

After we snuggled, she put on her dance clothes and put on a recital for me. I love to see her dance! I also love her self-confidence and her love for our Lord. I have to admit I do worry about her as she gets older. I pray that she will continue to grow closer to God and that she won’t let this world change who He made her to be.

I love the time we got to spend together at the beach last week too. I enjoyed getting up and walking on the beach with her. We got to see God’s beautiful creations while having some girl time. My focus at first was to get out and get some exercise, but it quickly became about having fun and enjoying our time together. I did tell her to try not to get her dress wet, but she told me that was part of the fun. What a reminder to me…stop fussing and just have fun!

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Well she decided to watch one of her movies so I eventually got to have my quiet time this morning, but I am so thankful for the different start to my morning. I am so blessed!

How did you start your day? Was it busy or did you get your quiet time?

Hope you have a wonderful day!
Blessings to You,
Melissa