Do you find it easier to write when things are going good? Why is it so much easier for me to share the good times and not the bad? The bad times are when I need help and encouragement.
I have been taking care of my family that has been passing around a virus for over a week. I thought I had avoided it but no…it finally hit me this weekend. The weekend I had so many things planned to do…the weekend before Valentine’s Day. Not only did plans get cancelled, but the cleaning and laundry and the things I had planned to make for Valentine’s Day didn’t get done either. It is so hard for me to be sick and not be able to get everything done.
Not only am I sick…I am stressed! I start feeling overwhelmed like I will never get caught up. The negative thoughts start coming from all directions. The loudest is…you can’t work, take care of your family, and follow your dreams – you’re not strong enough to handle it all.
I even stressed over something I normally enjoy doing…writing my weekly post for our Dream Team. How was I supposed to write when I felt so down, so weak? Then I felt God telling me to SHARE. Not to hold on to all of this stress and the negative thoughts like I usually do. SHARE that life is not perfect, that I have weaknesses, that I have to learn to let go of perfection. SHARE that I am not always a good wife and mom.
SHARE that God is the only one that can give me the strength to keep going and His love and grace cover me when I am weak.
Holley asked us to write about something we need to say No to in order for us to say Yes to our God-sized dream. I wasn’t sure at first but I am now. I am saying No to holding on to all of the stress and negative thoughts that stop me from moving forward and following His plan for my life. No to the fear of just being real, being Me.
It is time for me to share all of me, not just the happy, feel good times, but the rotten, sticky, fed up times. I will share my hopes, my dreams, my fears. I will open up in hopes that it might help someone else going through the same thing or give someone else a laugh. 🙂 I pray that God uses the good, bad, and ugly to help us all grow closer to Him.